At times I think dreaming for creativity is cheating. I'm broke again with 13 dollars in coins in an electronic piggy bank. I applied at Best Buy. So many problems would be solved if I finally became employed and filled up my days and nights with productive work. Buy some equipment, take some courses via books, learn more about photography, build a portfolio, and get into school. It's worse when you don't have all of that and let the social anxiety eat at you.